Posted 1 year ago

I have come this far and now I am fearful about my career. Just one little slip up like having a kid get injured during an event and having one of their parents sue me or someone else will jeopardize my entire career. I don’t know what to do. I wish I can ”YOLO” randomly, but shit that is not a wise decision.

Posted 1 year ago

To think I would come to the point where I want to be with my family like nothing else mattered. I want to be able to talk about my feelings freely because maybe that’s what makes me weak. I am very shy about it when I am given thanks. I may seem like I don’t care, but I love the feeling as it feel like it warms me up inside. I want to talk about my deepest and sincere thanks for my family or just friends that has done something for me. I’m trying to make everything that’s coming my way positive. Of course, somewhere along those lines, things gets twisted and all, but maybe one day things will clear up with my friends that I cherish so much. They probably don’t know it, but i think about them everyday. I think about everyone, but as I can see, I just don’t know what to say anymore. It is not my place to be sticking around if I am not wanted. 

I am a giver. I give things. I love to buy things for people. I love to do favors. I am very generous and wish to keep it that way, but my time is running out. Maybe, just maybe I am able to do some good for  once.

Posted 1 year ago

its about time i got back here

I am very tired, excited and all sorts of emotions mixed together. I will be soon enough just going to play badminton again more often :D I live to play Badminton! WOO. jk i dont. I just love the sport ^_^

Posted 1 year ago

It’s getting harder and harder to live day by day. I don’t know what I can do, but with so little support, what else am I supposed to feel?

Posted 1 year ago

oh how you think life will go by smoothly. It doesn’t. Things are changing constantly and it will remain that way because life doesn’t just hand you things easily. Maybe to some, but not to the remaining of us. 

Posted 1 year ago

Sail - Awolnation

Posted 1 year ago

Imagine Dragons - It’s Time

Posted 1 year ago

145 lbs?

hell nah. I will break that weight limit and keep going. Nothing’s going to stop me from bulking right now.

Posted 1 year ago
Posted 1 year ago

i just wish i can sleep. i can never sleep.